The strong ability you struggle for belief makes me adore you more, I will respect and encourage you if as a friend, but as a participant, I know how beautiful it is and the pain execatly after we got happiness a moment ago. Attachment we pursue in the past becomes the biggest challenge now and began to bear the pain at the same time. I create the things I loved whatever it is looks like here, and appreciate I can have chance to follow my heart in life on some things, except for missing you and can’t help doubting the reality of it. sometimes I feel that maybe you would stop cuz can’t refuse the attractions of a stronger and better world, or we may be attracted by others cuz can’t bear the pain of the lack of closeness in physical and heart, I can’t get the points? of it. But thanks to you are more pure and patient than me in the relationship all the time. If you willing to do so even the relationship let you make concessions for what you want, I won't be polite for wanting you.?