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翻譯：Lynn Liu

校對：Ryan-Chopin

推送：Lynn Liu

Pain always stays in the center of?Billie Eilish’s songs, loud and neon, vibrating under snares. Her debut album from earlier this year,?When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?, was filled with haunted trap fantasias about wanting to die and feeling alone, punctuated with samples of?The Office?and an unforgettable “duh!” On the first song she has released since, she strips away any winking irony. “everything i wanted” is a meditation on the 17-year-old’s newfound fame. “’Cause everybody wants something from me now,” she sings, and then whispers, so quietly you have to adjust the volume to hear, “and I don’t want to let them down.” She sings about screaming underwater, clawing for air in public, jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge with none of the many people watching her offering help. Her voice alternates between long, curling drags and moments where it seems to shatter against the mic.

“痛苦”總是Billie Eilis的音樂中心，響亮且富有霓虹色彩，在電子鼓的節(jié)奏下顫動著。她的首張專輯《When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?》發(fā)行于今年早些時候，這張專輯充斥著死亡與孤獨(dú)的奇妙電子幻想曲，不時穿插著《辦公室（The Office）》的采樣以及令人印象深刻的“duh”！在她隨后發(fā)行的這一首歌曲中，她去掉了所有的冷嘲熱諷?！癳verything i wanted”是對十七歲年少成名的沉思?！癈ause everybody wants something from me now（因?yàn)槊總€人都想從我這知道些什么）”她唱到，然后她開始低聲耳語，聲音小到你必須調(diào)整音量才能聽到，“and I don’t want to let them down（我不想讓他們失望）”。她唱的是在水中求救、在公眾場合抓空氣、從金門大橋上跳下，卻沒有一個人朝她伸出援手。她的聲音在綿長、卷曲的延音和在麥克風(fēng)旁心碎的瞬間間交替出現(xiàn)。

The song is dedicated to her brother and producer Finneas, a tender, just-shy-of-saccharine ode to his support. Layered vocals swell and surround her in the bridge as she asks, over and over, if she would do this all again, if she knew what she knew now. It is the greatest cliché of celebrity: to have everything you’ve wanted and to still end up miserable. But Billie dismantles the trope into a raw reverie, flushing out and flashing at her pain.

“everything i wanted”是她獻(xiàn)給她的兄長兼制作人Finneas的贊美之歌，這首歌溫柔、且有些甜蜜羞澀。她一遍又一遍地問著，如果她知道她現(xiàn)在所知道的一切，她會不會再這樣做，同時她那富有層次感的聲音飽滿起來、緊緊將她環(huán)繞于孤橋之上。這是名人最老生常談的一句話：即使擁有你想要的一切，但結(jié)局依舊悲慘。但是Billie把這個比喻變成了一個原始的幻想，沖出這個困境，在她的痛苦中閃爍著。